hey guys,

well basically I'm writing this down so someone can give me courage and tell me that it'll be ok. basically 2 months ago
i lost a very best friend and he was a guy. we were jst best friends and were reaaallly tight. he used love another girl and i was fine with that even though he was very fittt looking bt the girl he loved was also a good friend of mine. thats kind of how we met. but yeah. the worst part is he has passed away from an illness and it was horrible. worst days of my life. i miss him so much. i was the only one who knew about his illness and that he was dying. i dont like talking about him to anyone because i jst feel like screaming and crying. im trying my best to move on and not think about him too much but no matter what i do he always creeps up into my mind. when I'm studying, every morning i get up and sometimes i just cant sleep for the whole night. i try to keep reminding myself that hes in a better world, a better place but it still hurts, it still kills. I'm really focusing on my studies at the moment and its not always so bad when I'm around friends like i can smile and laugh when I'm with my other friends, but i just wish i could bring him back. we used to talk all day and i used to give him tips on how to Impress his girl and stuff like that. we had great times together. i love him very much and miss him deeply. i feel so sad and horrible. i wish i had him for just for abit more time so i could hug him so hard. but i guess I'm just going to have to live my life without that. I have many goals that i wish to acheive and that gives me hope for the future. I'm not afraid of death anymore at all. but i dont want to die yet because there's still so much i want to do. i believe that i will meet him in life after death in heaven and before he went he said to me "cya in heaven", but sometimes i cant help thinking that 'what if i never ever ever meet him again, and never see him in the next life' this thought reallly scares me and i break down when ever this thought comes to me.
I'm grateful to God for what He has given me and ive never blamed him from taking my best friend away from me but i wish he was given more time. he was soo young to die, only 17 yrs of age. i miss him
it feels good sharing this. thanks.

Hi,

Its really very hard to carry such pain. God sends everyone to the world for a purpose and once it is achieved, he will take them back. I know it might not be so easy to forget him, but time will give you the strength to overcome the pain. Just don let that thought come to you that he is not there. Remember the sweet moments u shared with him, and keep going in life. Also keep urself occupied. Set your goals and work towards it.

i feel really sorry for u. n i kno how it feels to lose some1 who is so close to u. i lost my grandmother 2 yrs ago n still i miss her very very much. bt i have learnt to make her memories my strenght and its working well. u may try it.

sure it will take some time but soon u will be able to get over it and move on with your life.

i wish you all the very best. and always remember, every time u shed a tear, ur friend is watching u and shedind tears too. so try to be happy, if nt for urself then atleast for ur friend.

love u!!!!

thank you reva and thank you miley. im so very grateful for ur comments, i feel so much stronger. God bless you. thanks again.

if a word can make u feel stronger, then u bet i have loads of them for u, friend!!!

do keep smiling