Hi Guys and Gals

This is Aditya. I have been suffering from a serious problem. Nothing is going rite , nothing is going my way. My life is all messed up. Around a year back i developed a drinking habit i can finish around 3/4th of a bottle and still nothing would happen to me. Gradually i gt into drinking. I lost interest in everything. After completing my course i gt a job worked fr 5 months but did;nt like the job so quit it . Meanwhile in the time being my drinking problem had stopped i controled my self and did;nt drink but after a few months when i started working and was loosing interest in job out of insecurity i started drinking agan. Now again i have controlled the drinking thing, but i feel miserable. I cant frget the past and hw foolish i was to get into such a thing. If i reflect the past i see so many opportunities lost coz of dis. I have lost interest in everything. My parents cam to know about my drinking problem and dey r shatterd . I feel miserable for that. I Have lost majority of my frineds. Before having this drinking problem i was very famous all over. No party would start without me and would end only when i would have stoped. I have had fights with a few of my close friends and not on talking terms. I am in debt and have to pay off my friend with whom i had a fight. I dnt have any other friends. I am 24 and feel my whole life is going waste as this is the youth age and i am nt doing anything about it.

Nthing seems rite i have lost interest in everything, i dnt meet anybody, dnt even like to go out for parties anymore. Always have a feeling of guilt remorse,short tempered,etc I just feel my life is getting wasted. Just wasting time sitting on my A*s. 24 years of age and no fun in life no nothing. Feel terrible can go on writing about whole thing but it;s jst nothing. I dnt even knw wt i am writing and why i am writing(M nt High or drunk) . I wanna live life ,i wanna be known in this world fr gud, i dnt wanna be anybody i wanna b somebody, i wanna fulfill my wishes. Dnt knw wt to do. M just writing so that i feel light at heart. I dnt have any friend with whom i can share and as i dnt like to express my feelings i thoought of posting it on this website.

I think the best solution to ur problem is to change ur thinking.

Whatever has happened let it be. Now just focus on ur future. Plan ur routine and save some money to pay off ur debt. If posible do try to sort out the differences between u and ur friends. This will really help u in coming out of this guilt u r withholding inside u.

Take out some time to watch movies, have fun with friends, and gradually u'll find the charm getting back into ur life.

U r just 24...u have a good deal of time to make things better and achieve ur goals. Just be optimistic and have faith in urself. Things will definately fall in place.